When Life Gives You Lemons.....

Last week was really tough. I still have lots of baby stuff around the house. A lot of my friends have said to put it all away but it is a reminder that we WILL have a little girl here.  I have not hidden it because it gives me hope that my dreams will come true.

We have thought about trying another round of in vitro but I don't know if I can handle it right away. It takes an emotional and physical toll on your body and mind. And, it is not guaranteed to work. There are many women who have to go through the process many times until she is pregnant.

We have thought about private adoption and have been told its $30-50,000. You can go all the way thru the pregnancy and the birth mom can decide to keep the baby and you will not get your money back.

We have considered foster-to-adopt. This is the best choice for us right now. We are going to go to an orientation meeting tonight to get more information. I am aware that not every little girl placed in our homes we will have the chance to adopt. One of my friends has been thru this process and ended up adopting two beautiful boys. She told me "Even though I might not have been able to keep every child, for the time there were here, I knew they were clean, fed and loved". How inspirational that is to me.

It seems like it doesn't matter which path you choose there is a risk. We could do ivf again and not get pregnant or we get pregnant and have a miscarriage, we could go thru private adoption and not get a baby, we could go thru foster care and have to give babies back. Every avenue can lead to heartbreak. At least with foster care we will have a baby here. And I know that baby will be clean, fed and loved!!!